Secret


I turned my eyes away from the boys I passed by
Because they looked dazzling to me
They had the free wings like an innocent child

Even if I search for a light place over the darkness
Spreading the only wing left for me
I can't reach the truth alone

How am I looked
In your eyes from your place?
Please laugh away
These days of mine filled with false things
Before it's too late

Even when I get tired of flying, I don't even have courage to rest my wing
If I could have a wish come true
Take me away from here, please

I'm still here and have been searching as before
For a place I can fit in
I heartily wish
This feeling could reach you at least
I want nothing else

How am I looked
In your eyes from your place?
Please laugh away
These days of mine filled with false things


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letter to my little smile:


I saw in your eyes the boy i passed long time ago
your smile broke my heart, and fixed it up again
I wish I could see you everyday, and you could see me
I hope you will see that I was just like you are now

I miss your smile, since the first time I saw it
I wish you the best, and I know you trust me a lot
I cry because you are part of me, but we are apart
I wish I can see you again, and be with you forever...



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19's

A new year, something that I was not expecting at all... tears down my face, one more time. With every year that passes, we are supposed to become stronger, mature. But, why am I crying then? maybe the sad passed came back once again hunting me... I will explain. Last year's birthday was in one of the hardest moments of my life, I suffered and learned a lot from all those bad experiences, and maybe, now that I think about it, these are tears of victory.

I hope what starts again from today is something beautiful, I wanna be and give my best, I wanna make my people happy, and keep learning from my mistakes.

I hope that, even that the time passes quickly, I would still be myself until the day I die.

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